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“Know thyself” – Some dead Greek guy.

Maybe it was Plato or Socrates who first use it to refer to a long-established wisdom.  Or maybe it was Plato talking about something Socrates told him once.  I don’t know.  But it’s mine now and I’m stealing it.  I’m gonna call it a Universal truth.  Oh yeah, I’m gonna steal that one too.  I don’t know where it comes from so if you want to know go look it up.  I digress…

So there’s this depression thing I got going for me.  And I have to take a lot of medicine for it.  But you can’t base everything on meds.  At least I can’t.  So I need to look into the eyes of the monster.  Where I come from and what it is that made my life what it is.  And there were a lot of problems growing up. 

People treated me wrong.  My parents weren’t blah, blah, blah.  That’s a longer story for later.  But you have to be able to move on from that.  You have to be able to forgive the people who have done you wrong in the past.  It’s not the easiest thing to do but you have to go as far as you can.  The way that I was able to do that was to take an honest look at myself and say, I’m not all that bad of a person. 

I have faults just like everyone else.  I’m overweight.  I don’t have a very outgoing personality.  I have depression.  I don’t work overly hard and I generally don’t put in 40 hours a week at work.  I don’t have a lot of confidence in my abilities.

But there’s a lot of good to me too.  I try to be a good person.  I try to help other people.  I want to set an example for my son and for that matter an example for everyone.

So I’m okay with myself (mostly).  And that helps a lot when I get to my low points.  I’ve had to switch my medicines lately and it makes me angry.  I know I’m not an angry person so I know it’s the meds.