I think about writing. But there's something in me that tells me I can't do it. I use to be able to write fiction. But now I feel like too much of a perfectionist to get it all down. "Write what you know." I think I know a little about a lot and a lot about a little (I'm just saying that cause it sounds cool).
I know about my life. I started out as a little poor boy and ended up a slightly less poor man. Not exactly a rags to riches story but more a rags to a slightly better class of rags.
I know about leadership. I'm not sure why I know about it. Some of my theory goes like this: you need a leader, be a leader. That and I was forced to be an adult at an early age (see alcoholic parents). Some people say that you're born a leader. Okay maybe that could make sense somehow.
I know about depression. Yep, I have it. The way I have had to learn how to carry on I think can help everyone. The tools that I've had to make are ones that deep down everyone knows can be helpful. Live with less stress. Relax. Don't blame yourself for everything. Think positive (as the neutron said to the proton "are you positive?").
I want to write. I think it's been my life long dream. I've never had the push. Just the fears. And the excuses.
And a lot of the time I find myself running and getting up to speed. Then I slip on the ice for some reason and I think to myself "well, I'm not doing that again". But so far I keep trying to get that running start.
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